New year

Just sitting here and reflecting on the last year or so and as regards some matters a much longer period of time.
To those of you who are also my Face Book friends, you know that last week I had what I would term  a real wobble, for the first time in many years I was to scared to even go across the road to the where the bike is parked.
Putting post on how I was feeling, one of the things that became clear was the love and support of my friends, all of which helped me through a difficult time.
We do live in a much more disconnected society than we have ever done before, but if we have the strength to post that we are in a bad space, the response , certainly in my case help provide some strength to carry on.

But back to the new year, this year I will be forty, yes really,

By this time I would have hoped to have been in a long term stable relationship, but  Alas this was not to be, after  a couple of long term relationships, IE, over 6 months , and in one case two and a half years,  followed by  an engagement and marriage that lasted in total for almost 6 years. Now we parted company now almost seven years ago, with no children I might add.
 In those years since , I have worked hard, been promoted more than once , until I had a good job which of course I was made redundant from as that industry collapsed...
The relationship side of thing has taught me more than I would care to  admit , in many ways I have perhaps led a life with a lot of men would only have dreamt about. If I'm honest , this lifestyle has left me bruised and battered beyond anything else that has happened,
All which has made me ask , what is important and why ?
Well going into the New year, I wish for several things.

1st, that I  manage to get though the 2nd year at Uni ok and hopefully do ok in the third....
2nd, that I find someone to love and share my life and hers together with both love and understanding.
I have spent to many years wandering alone  inadvertently hurting those around and getting hurt myself.
3rd, that my creative work hopefully reaches out and touches some, for to be able to write something which can touch someone else inside is an amazing gift.
4th, becoming secure  financially, just once in my life would be a real  relief.
And of course health and happiness for all of my friends and family , for there is truly no greater gift.

Well this enough of this reflective   navel casing ....
Sorry about the miss spellings , but I hope that we all find peace and happiness in the New Year ..

Alex